A Quiet Insurrection

Sick and tired of being sick and tired...

2005-03-29T10:18:01Z

Well, it is 3:48 in the morning, I didn't have to work Monday night, so why am I awake? I am awake because I have strep throat...that's why. Due to this illness I went to bed at like 10 when I was running a fever, and now that I have obtained about 6 hours of sleep, my body is ready to go. Sick, isn't it? That my body is used to about 5-6 hours of sleep. So used to it, in fact, that I cannot sleep even now, when I am ill. Insomnia, here I come.

Also, what is the deal with me this year??? I had a severe allergic reaction my second week of school, broke my ankle two weeks after that, then came down with the flu, followed by several colds. That was all first semester. Then this semester I have had pneumonia, broken a finger, and now I have strep throat. Quite frankly kids, I do not know how much more of this I can handle. I just feel incredibly down on my luck. Don't get me wrong, I love school and I love being here, but I feel like I am sick ALL of the time. Even Mary said today, "Man, you just have bad luck." Damn right I have bad luck! But how long is this bad luck gonna go on for??? HUH?? I am SO sick and tired of being sick and tired that I would do just about anything. I try getting more sleep, it doesn't work. So, I started taking a vitamin daily....yet still, I am sick. Maybe the terrorists are after me--that has to be it. I mean, honestly, that's the only reasonable explanation as to why I keep getting sick. The terrorists are lacing my mail with influenza and strep throat germs, those assholes!

However, I must say, my friends are really great about my being sick. They call and check on me to see if I need anything. Matt brought me popsicles today (which, in case you didnt know, are like one of the only things you can eat when you have strep), my friend Tim consistently offered to bring me soup. People are just way nicer in college than in high school. If I was sick in high school, people only noticed after I was gone for more than three days consecutively. What's the deal with that? Do you lose your mean gene when you come to college? Or are there just more people to choose from, so you eliminate all of the people that don't really mesh well with you? I don't know. I mean, some of my friends and I are polar opposites, some of us aren't, but we are seem to care about each other on this same, very genuine, level. I love it. I feel like I have people to turn to at all times, no matter what's going on. So thanks, you guys rock my hanes her way socks off!

In other news, I made the greatest decision of my life today (as Eddie would say). I officially planned my trip to California in May. Campground reservations have been made and the plane tickets have been bought! You see, I am going on a trip to Santa Cruz, California for a while week. I will camping in a tent in two of the most beautiful state parks in the country, while getting to surf the glorious beaches of California. The trip starts May 16 and goes to May 23. So far, it is just Eddie and I going, but if anyone wants to join, let me know. I can tell you prices and flight numbers. Everyone should come. It looks promising to be the trip of a lifetime...one of things you talk about while sitting in a rocking chair when you are seventy, saying "Oh I remember when I went on that crazy surfing trip to Cali even though I couldn't really afford it. (old lady/man chuckle)" So come on people, make those memories, come to CALIFORNIA BABY!

This is a really long entry. Congratulations to all of those who have made it through...I am proud of you. Now is the time where I go make hot chocolate, put on a movie, and pretend that I am not a pathetic loser who is always sick and cannot sleep when normal people are tucked away inside their dreams. But in doing so, I must leave you with this.

Edward Abbey:
"There is science, logic, reason; there is thought verified by experience. And then there is California."

Don't be logical, don't have reason...come to California. :-)

Why?!?!?

2005-03-22T08:11:45Z

Why are boys so fricken mean and complicated??? HUH!!?? WHY???!

Yay for my birthday!

2005-03-07T09:36:51Z

Message taken down due to my sister's disapproval...

Oh what a past few weeks I have had....

2005-02-27T23:13:34Z

So friends, again it has been a while since I have gotten around to updating this. It's not that I don't have plenty to write about, it's just...does anyone even read this??? Well, just in case someone actually does, I will fill you in with the latest.

The week before last is now officially known as "Amanda almost died" week. It's true, kids, it's true. You see, I got sick. At first, no big deal, it started off as the common cold and I just thought, "Damn, this sucks, I have a fricken cold." But then a few days later it progressed into this total ickiness accompanied by a persistent cough. So, I thought I would go to the doctor to get some medicine since I had been running a fever for a couple days as well. Well, I get there and the guys says that I have a severe case of bronchitis and that I am in the first stages of pneumonia! PNEUMONIA!!! Can you believe that??? So, after being prescribed several medications my doctor says, "Do you have any place you could stay other than the dorms for a while? If you get out of the dorms you will get healthier twice as fast and your pneumonia will hopefully not progress." Well, I am afraid the only friends I have here at school in a house is Matt. And if you have been to the CrackHouse before, you should know why I did not think that would be a healthier environment for me to be in. Anyways, since I didn't have a place to go other than the dorms, the doctor highly recommended that I just go home for a little while, and that is exactly what I ended up doing. I went home on a Wednesday and came back the following Monday. Thank GOD I went home. On Thursday night, I about died. My mom called the hospital to see if I should be brought it...it was terrible. I will not tell the disgusting details, trust me on this one, you don't want to know. Now I am back at school and back in the swing of things, but still not feeling my best. The doctors said it would be a few weeks still because pneumonia can really kick your ass I guess. But yea, so that is why or how I almost died.

For more fun news. This past Friday, me, Eddie, and a bunch of girls that I work with from Subway went to this country line dancing place in Bartonville. It's called Stone Country and they play everything from country, to hip hop, to disco, to weird techno mixes that makes me think of singing hamsters. And it was majorly AWESOME! There were so many people there and the dance floor was constantly hopping. But the best part was the line dances. They had line dances made up to everything from Tim McGraw songs to the Men in Black anthem by Will Smith. Now, in going there, I did not know any of these dances, but Eddie and I managed to catch on fairly quickly. I hope to go back soon, it really made me happy to get out there and dance. I think next Fall I am going to audition for a dance troupe. I was dancing in Subway the other night (its what I do when things get slow while I'm working) and these two girls said that I was really good and that I should audition for their dance troupe, so I think I might. I'm not sure yet, decision still pending.

Well this is a long entry, and I am getting hungry. I'm going to try to update this thing more....but I make no guarantees. I love you guys and appreciate you checkin' in here (if anyone actually does read this) Well, I'm done....Have a glorious day!!

It's been a while...

2005-02-02T21:47:21Z

Hey dudes....it's been a while since I have updated this thingy, but what can I say, I am a busy lady! So not too much is new, except that I am back at school and I love it here! ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!! Hmmm...but what else is new??? Oh! I went on a date with this guy named Jason, it was fun, but I don't know if I want anything to come of it. I am sort of enjoying this whole single thing right now. Boys are far too complicated. I just want to meet someone I can have a good time with and not have to put up with any bullshit. Let's be honest here kids, I am only 18, I don't need some boyfriend being all serious and holding me down. Am I right? I think so...
I also have a job now. I work at Subway in Watterson Towers...that's right kids...I am a Subway Sandwich Artist. What really sucks is that I have to work the 9 pm to close shift. That means I don't usually get home from work until about 3 in the morning, not cool. But hey, I need the money. Other than that I have just been hanging out with friends and going to class. A lot of my professors this semester are very interesting, but I am not sure if I actually like the classes I am in, ya know what I mean? I thought you guys would. I don't think I will be going home until Spring Break, the parents aren't all too pleased with that one, but I don't feel like going home every weekend. So anyways, that's the update....keep in touch guys....I miss you all!!!

Oh man, I went skiing!

2005-01-08T01:32:41Z

So dudes, I just got back not too long ago from my very first ski trip ever! And let me tell you...it was AWESOME! My friend, Eddie, from ISU organized the whole trip, and it ended up being a group of about 24 kids. The first day we got there, we went skiing at night, and I was a little timid at first. I stayed on the small hills all night, and then the first time I went to the big hill, I fell on my ass way hard. Not good. But the next day I started off small again, but then my friends Mike and Andres helped me get the courage up to go back on the big hills. And thank god for them because by the end of the day I was doing Black Diamonds, which are the hardest slopes. Yay for me! I was super excited about it and I feel very accomplished, it's nice!

We were supposed to get home on the 6th, but found ourselves snowed in. We ended up having 15 people sleep in 2 hotel rooms. It was a little cramped, but fun. All in all, the trip was amazing. The best part was that after being apart from people I have only know a few months for three weeks, we were able to come right back and be exactly how we are at school. It was very nice and relaxing. And now I want to go skiing a lot!

I am very ready to go back to school, I cannot wait in fact. Being home is so boring, there is never anything really going on. Not to mention I have to do chores for my dad. That's way lame. WAY LAME! Being back at school will be refreshing. At school, I can be myself completely. My parents are so strict I feel like I have to be this "good" little angel when I am here...and let's face it kids, I'm no angel.

Well, not much else to say.....check ya later dudes...

To the beginning of my LiveJournal....

2005-01-02T00:38:14Z

Well friends....a new year has begun, and I am not too sure how I feel about it. With this new year comes so much uncertainty. I mean, my first semester of college is already over and find myself with a small case of whiplash. Where did the time go??? If this single semester went by so fast, I feel like I will be graduating in no time, and quite frankly, if I could be a college student forever, I might just do that. Oh well, it's all a part of growing up, right? But then I have to ask, who really wants to grow up? I would have been perfectly happy staying at the age of 6 for the rest of my life. How great is it to be six? Think about it...no responsibility, your hardest class in school requires you to add two single digit numbers! That's the life. You come home from school, your mom has a snack ready, you do your homework (which is pretty much a single worksheet), and then you go out and play with your friends until supper time. That would be awesome. I would take that in a heartbeat.

Now, being 18 is awesome and it has it perks, but theres so much shit that comes along with it. There's college work (yea, thats a bitch), there's heartbreak (don't even get me started), and there's drama (especially from chicks). I don't know, I long for this year to be a simple year....not boring, just simple. I wish that this year would be simple for everyone...but let's face it, we're not off to a simple start. Look at what is currently happening in Thailand...I cannot even begin to imagine how horrible that must be to live through, to see, to experience. We are so lucky to be in landlocked Illinois right now (never thought I would say that).

Well, I am not sure what else to say, except that I hope everyone's year is glorious....gloriously simple.